Not Easily Broken

I just recently blogged about "Whatever may come Love it!" and less then 24 hrs later more trials arise. 2008 has really tested and refined us as a family. Even up to 23 hrs before January 1,2009. Death has taken it's toll on us and yet though we fight to remain positive.
It seems as if that knock is at our doorstep once again. And though I know that death will happen to all of us and some sooner then others. After the year we've had it just seems to be even more difficult. To keep from feeling everyone we love will return home to Heavenly Father tomorrow. And that's just not what I was expecting to feel right now. Not on the eve of New Year's Eve. And though in my heart of hearts I know this is for my experience. That this road once travelled so recently. Now revisiting is to make us stronger as a family. Keeping optimistic and remembering "Whatever may come Love it!" honestly isn't really what I'm able to hold onto right now. Isn't what I'm feeling strong enough to live up to but at the same time. I refuse to be weak and become easily broken. HAAAAPPPPPY NEW YEAR...